God wants me to blog

During my frustrated moments this past few weeks, I began to wonder if I should quit blogging. I didn't see the point, or maybe I felt that I was talking too much, or getting too personal, or whatever, whatever, whatever. Well as you know I've been missing in action for a bit on the blog front, and my sisters were asking me what was happening, and why I wasn't posting as much.

To be honest I really didn't have much to say and I was feeling a bit fed up with everything, but then the last few posts I wrote have had some of the highest viewing figures in RECORD time. Now it could very well be an anomaly, or one of those google glitch things, I don't know, but I think it's way too much of a coincidence for this not to be God's doing. You know, His way of showing me a sign.

Come on, think about it, I'm down in the dumps, contemplating quitting blogging, then I get prompted to write some posts and those very posts have over 600 and 2000 views respectively in a matter of days. I don't care what anyone says, that is INDEED a sign from God. He wants me to keep blogging people and what He says goes, so looks like I'm here to stay guys.

For now anyway........ : )

The story so far......

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Soooooooooooooo things have gone a bit quiet around these parts haven't they? Lets's rectify that.

The past few weeks have been very reflective for me. As previously mentioned things that I wanted to happen imminently like GET MARRIED, seemed to stall and I couldn't understand why. We have found a beautiful, reasonably priced venue, I won our invites, I bought a dress, but then OH started talking about using what money we have to buy a house which makes sense, but really? How much longer are we going to wait to get wed? I began to question why these things were happening - Doesn't God want me to rectify my situation? Doesn't God want me to get married to the father of my children? If so then why were all these little barriers being put in the way?

I was beginning to get frustrated because here I was breaking my neck, to buy this and buy that and plan this and plan that, but when I stepped back I realised that it was me doing all the work, I wasn't taking time to properly sit and listen to God's direction and guidance. I was too busy trying to do everything in my power to get out of the sinful situation I had found myself in. But it is not for me to do, it is for the Lord to do. Now I have come to realise that I must rest in Him COMPLETELY. I relinquish all control of my situation and I am waiting patiently for His revelations and promptings. His timing is perfect and He knows best. While I am waiting, I will praise Him and worship Him, pray and read the Bible, so I can draw nearer to Him and stand confidently on His promises. In other words I'm building up my faith muscles. Lol. Yes Lord!

I think what it boils down to was that I was beginning to feel embarrassed about calling myself a Christian when my situation (unmarried mother of three) made me feel like a fraud, but then God revealed to me that He doesn't call us to be perfect, because it is through our imperfections and our weaknesses that His greatest miracles can be achieved. It doesn't matter where we are in our lives or what we have done in our past, if we put all our faith and trust in Him, He will restore us, lead us on the right path and deliver us to victory. The God I serve is an awesome God y'all.

This Bible verse sums it all up beautifully...

'...My grace is sufficient for thee; for my strength is made perfect in weakness.'

2 Corinthians 12:9

Five

At 10.10am five years ago today. This little girl came into the world. She was due on Christmas day, but she obviously took pity on her perpetually sick and exhausted mother and decided to make a very unexpected early exit!

My eldest daughter is a joy. Chatty, inquisitive, giggly, clever, she is a bundle of fun and I thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful child.

Happy birthday beautiful girl. Have a glorious day. I know you will.

I love you forever. Mummy xxx

Treading water

You may have noticed my posts have been a bit sporadic lately. I've not wanted it to be this way, but sometimes you just have to take a step back and assess things from afar. Yes I'm talking about my life and the fact that I feel like I'm treading water at the moment. Not going anywhere but feeling really exhausted nonetheless. Phew.

I must say I'm learning a lot about myself, namely that I'm impatient and a bit of a control freak. Lol. Not to worry though, the good Lord is ironing out all of my creases and I know, that I know, that I know He has a whole lot of plans in store for me. Yes Lord! Praise His holy name forever!

Friday reflections - Week 6

I'm not gonna lie. This week has been tough. There have been a variety of things that haven't seemed to 'go my way', so I've been pondering my actions and digging deeper into God's word.

I don't want to do anything if God's not 100% in it, so I've been praying intensely for His wisdom and guidance. I want to be sure I am following His will for my life and not my own. It hasn't been easy, but by taking each day at a time He has slowly revealed to me the way I should go. Thank you Jesus. Today I'm feeling recharged and back on top. God is so good.

I'll leave you with some words of encouragement - truly, nothing beats the word of God.

'Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.'

1Peter 5:6-7

Have a blessed weekend x

Friday reflections - Week 5

It's Friday Reflection time and there is a lot to reflect on and be thankful for. If you follow me on Instagram you may have seen the pictures I posted from my wedding dress shopping experience last week. Well exciting news.....The dress has been bought!

Yes I did it, I bought my wedding dress and I'm really happy with it. Thank you Lord for your wisdom and guidance. I paid a fraction of the cost because it was a closing down sale, so; 'chuffed to bits' doesn't come close to how excited I am. I'll have to get it dry cleaned, the bust area needs altering and there are a few little snaggy bits that need tidying up, but other than that it fits like a glove. I'll really need to watch what I eat though because if anything, I could do with dropping a pound or two - it fits that well!

I'm so glad my little sister was able to come with me, her opinion was invaluable and she took some great photos which further allowed me to take a good look at what worked and what didn't. I even tried on some veils which really added the WOW factor (so that'll be my next purchase). It was such an amazing experience. I was quite apprehensive to begin with, but once I started putting the dresses on I really did feel like a princess.

On another note, getting married in a tropical setting is looking highly unlikely. Little man's passport still hasn't arrived. There is a slight delay due to extra checks having to be made as it's his first passport, but not to worry as we have found a fabulous venue in the UK, which exceeds anything we could have hoped for. Thank God for His wisdom and mercy. The pace is really beginning to pick up on the wedding front and more will be revealed as it happens.

In the meantime I've been reading some fabulous Christian books which are completely enriching my life. Pastor and author Francis Chan is an amazing Spirit filled man of God who is really opening my eyes to what it means to be a Christian who is on fire for Jesus. Within the space of a week and a half I've read three of his books and they have really intensified my walk with God. The Bible is becoming clearer to me the more I read it. My life is forever changed for the better and I often ask myself; 'What took you so long to realise how real and how great, a close, personal relationship with God really is?' I could have saved myself a lot of pain and heartache; (not saying the Christian walk is easy, because it is not. But I have a peace and a comfort I never experienced before), He knew, and He knows everything I was and am going to do before I did or do it. He knows the deepest part of my being, He knows my heart, He knows what is best for me and His timing is perfect.

I'm going to leave you all with a powerful prayer that Francis wrote in his book 'Erasing Hell'. It pierced my heart and soul and had me in tears. I want to be the kind of Christian that reaches out to those in need and puts others before myself. I want to live in a way that glorifies Christ and pleases him. I want to be more like Him and less like me. His way is perfect. (Psalms 18:30).

Father I put all my faith and trust in You. Only You can change me, only You can make me Holy. I submit to Your will for my life in Jesus mighty name. Amen!

Have a wonderful weekend lovely readers. God bless x

Goodbye first tooth

Last Saturday night my eldest's first tooth fell out. Well I say fell out, I gave it a bit of a pluck. Don't be grossed out, it was hanging on by a thread. How she was managing to eat I really don't know. This is how it happened.

For the past few days I'd been giving the tooth a wobble but it wasn't really ready. Well on Saturday night after giving the girls a shower and washing and doing their hair I got them ready for bed and read them a story. It was after the story I asked to see my eldest's tooth. I wobbled it and it was just hanging there. It got me remembering when I was a little girl and my dad used to do all kinds of unexpected things to pop our wobbly teeth out.

Anyway I was wiggling away, and my daughter was flinching a little so I stopped then I asked to look at it again and I wiggled it bit harder then I quickly tugged at it and it fell out onto her duvet. She was giggling and I was cheering. Daddy went wild too. There was a little bit of blood but that was sorted with a bit of a wash out with water. Such a big brave girl.